Government Assistance: A JOKE to those who NEED it the MOST

I am just 1 of millions of single parents who do not receive child support, nor can get any type of assistance from our local government. We live in America, Pay our Taxes and work 2+ jobs in order to pay our bills and daycare. I have been denied several times by our local government for Child Care Vouchers. Why? Because I make $124.00 too much to qualify! So, I picked up a second job in July, and that lasted until October, when I was told that if I can't make it there by a certain time, it is best I resign. I work in the health care field, and of course there are days that I can not be there by their designated time. Then I was told my local YMCA has grants for daycare, only to learn my son does not qualify due to his age! Wow. All I can say is there needs to be something done for us who need the help and work/hold a job!

What is so unfair, is that WE are the ones paying for those folks who have children every year, can work but choose to suck the government's teets, rather than be a productive member of society. I guess being a white, single mother, who works 40+ hours a week just at 1 job, which I have held for over 1.5 years now, doesn't matter. I pay our health care, our food and rent/bills, not asking the government for more than VOUCHERS!

Our government is a complete joke. While we are suffering, and swallow our pride because daycare is so expensive, ask for HELP, only to be DENIED. What is our country truly becoming??

Disappointed American, PROUD Mom.

God Bless.

Mental Illness vs Pure Evil

I am highly agitated at the fact the media always wants to blame mental illness as the reason for a person committing a heinous crime of taking someone's life. Let me tell you, any human being who has the gumption of taking one's life is pure evil, and has nothing to do with mental illness. The media likes to use this term easily. I think people just want someone or something to define a person's actions. People, such as myself who suffers from depression/anxiety/PTSD, I take as very offensive. I am not going out and hurting or killing people because of what I have been diagnosed with. People do not realize not every one has been born with this, and I am one of those people. I did not develop this until my late 20's. Mental Illness is mainly caused by any traumatic event that has happened in a person's life. For some, it stems from childhood trauma, others it does not happen until adulthood. My traumatic event had to do with the marriage I was in, and the abuse that I endured.

I just wish that the media would stop over using the term mental illness. The latest tragedy in California had nothing to do with it. The suspect was angry at women because they would not give him the time of day, so he decided to take innocent lives because of his selfishness and because he is pure evil.

I would never and have never ever wanted to hurt someone, let alone murder someone, and I know a lot of people who have mental illness who wouldn't either. Society anymore wants an answer to the problem, something to blame this on. So, next time they throw out mental illness, please take a step back and look at the BIG picture.

God Bless and Happy Readings!

Intro:Hello My Name Is...

My journey really began at age 26, when I finally decided to divorce my then husband due to mental instability and adultery. It wasn't until D-Day (this meaning Divorce Day), that I really hadn't lived life at that point. At 21, no one really is truly ready for marriage. I longed for a family, and so I decided after 9 months of knowing him, to get married. Through that time I went through a lot of hell. Yes, HELL. He was always distracted somehow, and I just thought well that is part of his personality. Our first major fight he went straight to his parents, and that is the day our marriage really was over. I will keep everything that did happen during the marriage to a bare minimum, in part because I really do not like looking back, but I realize it is a part of my healing process even now, 3 years later. It was literally ME vs THEM, which the THEM included my husband. I fought so hard to save my marriage that I ended up having a mental break down of sorts, and have since been diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety & PTSD. With my faith, family and friends, I have learned to forgive the man I was married to. Forgiveness is not over night by all means. It took a couple of years and my relationship with God to really say "Ron, I forgive you for everything that had happened in the past." Forgiveness is extremely hard, especially what I was put through. I don't blame HIM for my mental issues, I blame the situation. Besides, I have grown as a person since then, and I am exactly where God intended me to be.

I went back to school, became a Medical Assistant, had my son and now enrolling in Nursing school. All because God has a plan for me, just as he has a plan for all of us. God will not give us things we can not handle. We must learn from him, and forgive those who trespass against us. As a Christian, I firmly believe that all of the human race need to forgive, and love each other. There is too much hate in this world, and folks, life is just too short! There is too much hate anymore. Too many murders and suicides. What has happened to us? Where is the love? Jesus died for us on the cross for our sins, have we forsaken him?

I am not perfect. I am a divorced, mother who had a child out of wedlock, but guess what? GOD blessed me. I don't feel like a failure anymore because this was supposed to happen. This was his plan for me. My son, he is my reward, my gift from God. Being a mother is what I had longed for when I was married, but was unsuccessful at carrying a child to term. My first child was a miscarriage and she is my angel in heaven. My son, he is my blessing, my earth angel. You see, God has a plan.

I hope that you will follow me on my journey through Faith, Family, Weight Loss and Motherhood by reading this blog. God bless, and love one another.

Happy Readings :)